without you / Kath (aunty)
hey my beautiful nephew I still cannot accept what has happened to you duey. days become weeks and weeks become years. It seemed like only yesterday that i last saw your beautiful smile and felt the love that only you could give but in another way if feels like a life time ago. oh how i miss you still. every day i wake with you in my mind most nights you are in my dreams i must tell myself to stop when my mind tends to wander down the path that leads to that horrible night. occasionally i cant leave the path and those are the worst times its weird how many plans you can come up with in the middle of the nightall the regrets and if onlys come up in the night too. i tell myself to focus only on you and then i see that beautiful smile and then i hear that childlike laugh. so excited at just living your life. then i smile but only for a second for the pain is always right behind. The pain that is still so strong and raw the pain that is only felt by the people that have lost someone they truely loved.No one else can ever know what thats like to be consumed by sorrow they may say they know but they have no idea. The endless grief that can only be cured by you coming back home is overwhelming. i know if you could you would fix our broken hearts duey you would make us all whole again you would do it in a heart beat. But that cant be we are forever damaged and we must live with this for the rest of our lives.. what a burden to bear. I want to remind you again I LOVE YOU DWAYNE xxxx Close
MISSING U SO MUCH / Aunty Kath (aunty (friend) )Read >>
MISSING U SO MUCH / Aunty Kath (aunty (friend) )
Hey duey, just looking at your beautiful face and feeling my heart shatter into pieces agaln. its just so sad, and so so wrong. why did this happen to you, why did it happen to your family, people who love u unconditionally. duey please remember you were never judged by your family not ever. although you probably thought u were the black sheep i want you to know you were and never will be anthing but a beautjful soul that just took the wrong track home sometimes. i miss u each and every minute of the day duey , they say when you think of people gone remember them with a smile, what the hell are they talking about, i cannot think of you duey without sorrow screaming inside of me. how can anyone that ever loved you smile at your memory, its just too painful dwayne. i know you know i love you but i'm just reminding you. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU DUEY and know your aunty kath is here for you. ALWAYSXXXXXXX Close
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I leave tomorrow for Tucson to visit family. On Saturday I will hold a memorial for family members---Dad, Kyle and cousin Rose. I will include you in this memorial. You have come to mean so much to me and I know you and Kyle are best of friends in heaven. Take care and hope you two leave me signs that you are there. Until then, peace be with you!
Hey mate,sorry i havent been on here in ages but i just cant bring myself to come on its all still so wrong. i thought if i could go on with life pretending you were still here and i would just see you the next time im up at mums house like i used to my life would just be the same but the thing is mate deep down i know your not here and i know i wont see you and boy it kills me. it eats at me and it just keeps eating until im almost ready to just dissappear myself but i know i have to be strong not just for me but for everyone else around me and im doing it on my own when i know i need the help but im getting through and i know you would be proud of me. As you may be aware cos i know you will be looking down on me that i am having a baby so your going to be an uncle. i know you were with me at the time i found out cos yes the moth was at my door when i was talking to you so i trust that it is meant to be. im excited and scared at the same time. Trent is so happy and i dont mind what i have if its a girl ill be happy and if its a boy he will be named after brad and you so im happy either way. the hardest part is knowing he will never meet you and its a nightmare thinking that.Not only do i have to change to look after the baby when he comes but to have that your not here behind me i dont know if i can be the mum to my baby like what our mum was to us. I know we had our ups and downs dwayne but we were getting along really well the last few months you were here like googling the earth at mums and finding the pyramids and your house and even though sometimes it would kill me picking you up from work at marshall town rd Dwayne i would do it all again if only i had have known what life would be without you. well im going to go cos writing this is making me get angry at you for leaving us but deep down i know you wanted to see nan but i wish you were seeing her as a visit and not living with her but then i suppose nan wouldnt have let you go out of her sight when she saw you cos she hasnt seen any of us for a long time so i guess you had no choice but to stay. well i love you with all of my heart and would do anything to have you back.. Love forever your sister xxxxxxxx
Dear Myra,thank you so much for thinking about dwayne i know he and kyle are best friends,there is a very special connection there,between the boys and also a special connection between u and i.I would love to e mail u but i dont have yr email address anymore as i had to change my email address as some how it wouldnt reconise my password so i was locked out,so all my email addy's went with it..so if u could send me yr email address again,i would love to talk to u. lots of love Deb(dwaynesmum) xxxxx